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[info]thehudson [08 Oct 2029|12:14pm]
TRISTA WELLS
biography

Born to a college cheerleader, the product of a clandestine affair with a married professor who - it turns out - wasn't interested in leaving his wife after all, Trista Wells' story is questionable right from the start. She decided against adoption at first, but before Trista even reached kindergarten, her mother grew tired of the sacrifices expected of her. With $5,000 cash on her, she gave the girl a $10 and sent her into a bakery, telling her to buy herself whatever she wanted. As soon as the girl's back was turned, her mother drove away. Unsurprisingly, no one claimed the girl and Tris was made a ward of the state. She went into foster care, bouncing from home to home, in and out of group organizations when there weren't enough families to go around. It worked against her that Tris wasn't the prettiest child. She was awkward and gangly, with a face full of freckles. Many parents choose children with similar physical attributes - there weren't many gingers looking to adopt and the older Tris got, the harder it became. The worst part of it was being old enough to know what happened; the memory is as vivid as one that happened yesterday. At first, Trista was sure a mistake had been made. Her mother had gotten lost, or in an accident - someone would come for her eventually.

By the time she was 12, Tris accepted that no one was coming. With no family to speak of, she learned to rely on herself. In high school she began to grow out of her awkward phase. Socially, she still struggled. It was no secret that Trista lived in a group home and it was easy ammo for queen bees and mean girls. She made the mistake of confiding in someone about her mother, only to have the girl spread the story all around school a few months later when a boy she liked asked Tris to a dance, instead. Picking herself up, Tris distanced herself from the girl and vowed not to make the same mistake again. What she really wanted to do was go to college - to go somewhere no one knew her and make something of herself. But school was often difficult and she found herself too proud to ask for tutoring help. She was of slightly below average intelligence, and could work hard all day in school and on homework and make only C's. When graduation and her 18th birthday rolled around, she found herself with no way to support herself. Tris scoured the want ads, and finally found one requesting 'glamour' models. She wasn't so dense enough to not know what kind of model they wanted but with no security net, no marketable skills and no money she saw no other option. Her job at McDonalds paid her rent on a tiny apartment shared with three other people. She only had enough left over to pay for half a month's food and ate at work the rest of the time, scraping the breading off chicken patties and making salads from the lettuce and tomato slices. Her head was rapidly slipping below the surface.

At a loss, she called number in the ad. The photographers were impressed with her cute, freckled face and barely-legal status. Tris was surprisingly photogenic, to boot, and once you had a few shots in her would do anything they asked as long as she got paid. It felt good to be self-supporting, she realized, and quickly began doing photoshoots with other women and even men. Less than a year later, she made the jump from print to film. Deep down, she felt no sense of pride or accomplishment in what she was doing, but it made her feel special - she liked going to the conventions and having men ask to take pictures with her. For the first time, she felt worthwhile. Once again, though, she had a hard time socially. Coke wasn't really her thing - the few times she tried it, the effect had scared her, and she wasn't much of a partier, either. It gave her an undeserved reputation for being 'stuck-up' and other girls in the industry were resentful of her shy attitude off camera and her success in front of it.

Over the years, Tris grew tired of her lifestyle. She began to grow conscious of what other girls her age were doing - dating, going to college, making friends. Some were starting to get married or have children and the picture of herself, having to tell a boy she liked what she did for a living was terrifying. Adult film began to make Tris feel bad about herself and she grew envious of other girls with normal jobs and mainstream lives. She saved for almost two years, putting her entire paycheck into the bank and living off interest and revenue from her fansites. Finally, when she had a nice, fat nest egg saved up (to the tune of 1.5 million) she retired from adult film and moved across country to Dobbs Ferry, NY. She enrolled at Westchester Community College, taking general education classes at night, and began the search for her first honest job.



quick facts

Born October 23rd, 1985.
Loves the color purple.
Is intensely shy when she first meets people.
Enjoys museums and zoos, is a visual learner.
Has no idea what career she wants, but is enjoying college.
Doesn't have much of a social life and gets tutored on the weekends.
Eats the exact same breakfast every morning: vanilla yogurt and fruit with a piece of buttered rye toast.
Allergic to shellfish.
Secretly wants to hunt down her birth mother and ask why she abandoned her.
Hates filling out medical forms that ask about family medical history.
Currently won't even entertain the idea of having children, because she's too ashamed of what she used to do for a living.
Owns nine pairs of pajamas and six pairs of slippers.
Outside of work, in her romantic life, she's only slept with two men. The idea of dating is intriguing, but wholly intimidating.

my stuff

PERSONAL EFFECTS
JEWELRY/WATCH a hello kitty watch she got for her 4th birthday from her biological mom, two earrings in each ear, various bracelets and necklaces to match whatever outfit she's wearing on a given day. COSMETICS mostly just eye makeup - eyeliner, mascara and some light, natural shadow. occasionally lipgloss if she wants to look nice.. FRAGRANCE heavenly dream angels by victoria's secret.. BAGS&PURSES a D&G black leather shoulder bag from two seasons ago. HATS occasionally, a cute, conservative beret if it matches her outfit. otherwise, beanies in the winter..

INSPIRATIONS
FAVORITE COLOR purple. FAVORITE INVENTION electricity. FAVORITE PLACE the san diego zoo. FAVORITE WORD fluffy. NECESSARY EXTRAVAGANCE expensive perfume and cable tv. WHO INSPIRES YOU jenna jameson and sasha grey - women who started in adult film and made mainstream names for themselves. FAVORITE SONG steal my sunshine, by len. FAVORITE MOVIE love actually. FAVORITE SHOW desperate housewives, grey's anatomy.

BELONGINGS
APARTMENT a decent, modest apartment in (neighborhood). IPOD the purple ipod nano. CAR yellow VW new beetle. COMPUTER a purple dell laptop. CELLPHONE Motorola W755

storylines

[info]jackfrankling: former boss.
[info]dallass: former boss and friend.
[info]dant: love interest, ooh lala.
[info]casc: one of the people who always seems to be on tris' side. tris is greatly appreciative.
[info]dpt: despite her young age, tris admires and respects delilah.
[info]mrshayes: someone who's become almost like a mother to her.
[info]trlarter: a friend and neighbor in Dobbs Ferry.
[info]wadefg: the owner of her favorite deli.
[info]dabrowski: one of her favorite people. she thinks very highly of him.
[info]gertiedabrowski: her surrogate grandma!

a romantic trist

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and you've changed so much, but it's still you. [16 Jan 2010|09:56pm]
Hello, everybody. I think I reached out to everyone who commented to my last post but if I haven't caught you yet, thank you. I appreciated all your responses and I especially appreciated everyone who came to my defense in Evan's post. Thank you for being amazing.

That said, lots of change has gone on in my life recently. I find myself with a lot more free time after quitting working. I switched my schedule at school so I could take a full course load but it's far from 40 hours a week and the more time I have on my hands the more I think. I've been thinking a lot about the situation in Haiti and it makes me remember that no matter how bad things are for me, someone out there always has it worse. It's hard to think about but I think it needs to be. So I have been thinking about what I could do to help and I know other people want to help, too. Did you know that Westchester County is the wealthiest county in the state? And the 7th wealthiest county in the country? So I was thinking other people probably want to help, too. And I bet they have money to help with.

So I think I want to plan a charity event. I went to city hall today and started paperwork, talking to people about permits and boring-but-necessary stuff like that because I want to throw a charity date auction, maybe for Valentine's Day! Like. The dates could be for V-Day? But the auction would be in a few weeks, like maybe two. I am going to petition some local restaurants for their participation, like discounted catering prices. And I am going to look at some banquet halls, too.

Who wants to sign up or help? I will need people willing to auction off dates with themselves but also people to help in other ways, too!

Last night, I had dinner with Dan and we went to karaoke. It was such a nice night! The restaurant we went to was so nice, and there were lots of dishes I'd never heard of before. The view was so pretty. And karaoke was amazing! Oh my gosh. Wow. It really was an amazing night, and so much fun. =) I felt so lucky to be a part of it. Tomorrow? Ice skating!
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i could travel just by folding a map. [04 Jan 2010|11:32am]
i was kind of an ugly kid. i was skinny and gangly with a nose that to this day is still kind of wrong for my face. i had too many freckles and i used to have a gap in my front teeth. i looked like a bunny. sometimes if i don't put on a lot of makeup and it's a bad day i still look funny like that. there's some girls that could look pretty just by waking up in the morning and i've never been her. i'm not that girl.

when i was five, my mom drove me to the bakery. she gave me ten dollars and told me to go inside and buy whatever i wanted - she'd park the car and then come in to meet me. i had ten dollars, which is a lot when you're five, so i got her something, too. i got my mom a cookie as big as my whole head, the biggest one they had, because i wanted to surprise her. and then i sat there waiting. the only people who came into the bakery for me were social workers. you can probably guess the joke was on me that day, and my mom never got to eat her cookie. funny looking little kids don't get adopted. i know that sounds silly but it's true - people who adopt want the kid from jerry maguire. they want that girl from those pepsi commercials with the dimples and the corkscrew curls. i don't have either of those things and no one ever adopted me. maybe if school was easier, i could have gone to college. real college, with dorms and fraternities and big lecture halls like in the movies but i could work hard all day in school and only get c's. even now i work hard in community college and i'm lucky to get b's. i never took the sats because i was afraid of what my grade would be.

so when i was eighteen i didn't have a lot of options. i didnt have the state to fall back on and i didn't have family either. my job at mcdonalds was the best i could do with no degree and no real skills. but if you slapped a lot of makeup on me i was sort of pretty and and i wasn't gangly anymore. so i answered an ad in the newspaper because i couldnt pay all my bills on $6.25 an hour, which was minimum wage in california at the time. i don't think little girls really aspire to make these movies when they think about what they'll do when they grow up. it wasn't something i wanted to do, but i figured it wouldnt matter because i didn't have a family to hide it from. that doesnt mean i liked it. i made a lot of movies and made a lot of money and it didnt really do much for me because it was so hard to look in the mirror. if that was all i could do with myself, if those were the only skills i could hone, what did it say about me as a person? i was a collection of tight holes and nothing else. but i did it for several years, like half a decade just about, and i got really popular. it was sort of nice to have people at conventions ask for pictures and my autograph. some men asked me to marry them. they told me they'd take care of me and pay for things and i wouldnt have to work anymore. but i never relied on anyone else before. and i didnt want to start.

i wanted to be one of the women i saw in the airport. i was on my way back home to california from an award show in las vegas. there were these fancy looking business women with tailored suits and briefcases who has nails and hair just as expensive as mine, except they talked on bluetooths about things that didn't make sense to me. but they seemed so smart. so important. and i wanted to be one of them so much. i bet they never felt bad when they looked in the mirror. so i saved up all my money and moved here to try and be myself, only better. a whole new trista, you know? i wanted to have friends and a real honest job and be a good, moral person. i'm trying to do better and i think i have to be a little nice to myself because not everyone does that. lying on your back is a real easy way to make money and i didnt want to take the easy way anymore. let me tell you something else, just because that's what i was paid to do doesn't mean i do it for myself. i have only been with two people outside of my old job and that's probably less than other people. so if you want to think i am a slut or a whore, then okay. i can't stop you. but i am trying to do better. and i'm sorry for the people i let down along the way. i just want to do my best and sometimes it's hard to tell ahead of time what your best should be.
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Letter to Jack and Dallas! =( [04 Jan 2010|11:24am]
Taped to the front door of Franklin-Shapiro's studio, in the middle of the night. )
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puppies and kitties oh my! [31 Dec 2009|11:12am]
I think this is the best sculpture I've ever seen!

Also, I got a kitten. Here is a picture. His name is Cat Stevens, and his hobbies include batting toilet paper, climbing into boxes, and stealing my food when I am not looking. He only has three legs because someone on a bike ran over him and severed his nerves. They left him on the road and the lady at the shelter said that they couldn't afford the amputation surgery and if no one adopted him they'd have to put him down. I am glad I got there when I did.

I ordered pizza for dinner tonight and am going to watch tv at home since I don't have plans for the New Year. I hope everyone is safe and if you drink too much and can't drive you should call me and I will come pick you up and I won't even get mad if you get sick and throw up in my car because that is better than drunk driving! My cell # is 914-392-7854!!
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